Many times I have asked myself the question if there truly is a place for me? I think it's a natural feeling for anyone at times to question where their place is, where they belong, and what their personal value is. We all have the innate desire to feel like we belong, and that the individual that we are is in fact a worthwhile person who is loved and valued.
Sometimes our earthly experiences can thwart our understanding and knowledge of our true value. Particularly individuals who battle with clinical depression. Anyone who has fought this battle, can testify that it truly tests your belief that "there is a place for you."
The feelings of darkness, worthlessness, inadequacies, and failures, can completely engulf individuals who suffer with severe depression. These crushing thoughts and feelings can quickly leave it's sufferers to forget that they in fact were created with unconditional love and with a very personal and individual purpose. These distorted thoughts create deep feelings of hopelessness, which if not challenged and treated properly, can create suicidal thoughts and tendencies. For anyone who is currently in this position, please seek out proper treatment. Talk to a trusted friend or family member. Talk with your Bishop or religious leader. If needed call 911, or a confidential suicide hotline. It is vital for anyone having suicidal thoughts to receive proper treatment.
For myself, proper treatment included counseling with a professional therapist, finding the right combination of medication, gaining understanding and knowledge of mental illness, and seeking out spiritual guidance and inspiration. As I have combined treatment from each of these individual and varied sources, I have been able to once again understand and believe that "there is a place for me."
Some individuals find relief and/or recovery quicker than others, however, it is so important to not loose hope. In the midst of depression, it is difficult to be able to even envision a happier and more worthwhile you. Please remember that your worth has not changed. You will always be a worthwhile individual who is a child of a Heavenly King. Your thoughts may tell you differently, but as you continue to hold on, and seek for hope, you will again be able to see your divine value.
President Uchtdorf, a member of the First Presidency of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints said:
"Think of where you came from. You are sons and daughters of the greatest, most glorious being in the universe. He loves you with an infinite love. He wants the best for you...
Our destiny is greater than we can imagine. If only we understood who we are and what is in store for us, our hearts would overflow with such gratitude and happiness that it would enlighten even the darkest sorrows with the light and love of God, our Heavenly Father. The next time you feel unhappy, remember where you came from and where you are going. Rather than focus on things that dampen your thoughts with sorrow, choose to focus on those things that fill your soul with hope. You will realize that these things are always connected to serving God and our fellowmen. Remember that the Lord has given you His word in the scriptures. Pray earnestly to Him; talk with Him daily. Learn of Him, and walk in His way. Serve God and serve your fellowmen.
It is my earnest prayer that the knowledge of who your are and what you may become will fill your souls with the peaceable love of God and that this will ignite within you a happiness worthy of your true heritage, for in truth you are princes and princesses, kings and queens."It too is my prayer that we all will recognize the divine and royal heritage that we each hold. As we come to more fully understand and recognize this, we will know that, "there is a place for us," and that "exactly who we are is just enough."
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